Monday, February 14, 2011

Simply Amazed

I think there are grown ups who do not understand some of the things my three year old does.  Today we were listening to "My Immortal" by Evanescence.  If you have not heard it or don't know what I am talking about - watch the video (below) or listen to the song.  It is one of the most hauntingly beautiful songs I have ever heard.  I have to try not to cry when I hear it.  

Here are the lyrics but you MUST listen to it:

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

There could be many meanings behind this song but to me I take it as a woman who wanted to free her soul (the cloths tied to various places on her body made my think she was being held hostage by the memories).  She wanted to free herself from this man (not ending her life but the bad circumstances in her life) as he was just a shell of a being now - due to bad ways, abusiveness, drugs, whatever.  She will always be bound to the memories of what was - when life was good between the two of them, before it all went bad.  What a heartbreaking struggle - for what was and what will never be.

This song could also be about losing someone and not being able to do a thing to stop it from happening.   The pain that is to come is too much to bear.  

While listening to this today Sleeping Beauty said to me, "Oh Mommy!  She's heartbroken.  She is crying.  Her Prince  Charming must have drowned in her tears!"  She didn't see the video - we were in the car.  And while I doubt he "drowned in her tears" I know that she understood.  I am just amazed at her ability to understand love so completely.  I think we are raising two young ladies who will really touch some lives one day.   I know I've already been changed.

Thank you for coming here - no matter what the reason.  :o)

Happy Valentine's Day!


  1. That song always chokes me up when I sing along. It's hard not to feel the pain in those words.


  2. I've already left my thoughts :) simply moving and very heartfelt ~ love, Nan


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